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 Things are better. Uncle's medication has been evened out. We came up for Thanksgiving and it was nice. I'm staying in Colorado, since various other family are visiting. I'm going to try and volunteer at the local raptor center. Other than that, it's back to cleaning, various projects, and job searching.

After catching some ice skating on TV, I remembered Yuri on Ice was a thing. I'm up to episode 5, and I completely love it. I'd like to get up to the World Ice Arena sometime. 

The Last Guardian comes out in 2 days. I plan to get it, but I feel a little scared. It was delayed for so long, and passed through so many hands, I'm not sure it will be very good. 

I haven't ordered any of the gifts I need to order. Once again it looks like Christmas will be a last minute affair for me.

Well, I am back in NM. Except I leave for CO tomorrow. I only came down to be with uncle for his first eye injection. It went smoothly, though he was very nervous. He did have a black spot- different from the original black spot- that was annoying him, but it was just from the injection and it cleared up today. It does seem some of the fuzziness has gone away, which is great news. Even if vision in his right eye isn't fully restored, if he can at least see light and vague shapes of objects his binocular vision will come back. I also managed to clean the fridge while I was here :D

Still haven't heard from my last ditch job application, and considering it starts Monday it's safe to say I won't be working this fall. Really unfortunate, but I'll just have to apply extra hard for positions that start January/February. I don't know how one applies extra hard to a job, but I'm trying to be optimistic here. 

Mentally I'm start to slip into old habits, and I would like to try and see someone about it. Before I came down here, Friend came to visit, and it sent me into a panic I can't seem to shake off. Also been feeling very lonely lately. 

I think I'll try a slightly different route back tomorrow. Google maps tells me it'll shave off 20 minutes of driving time, which would be great. 

Well, I've spent the past week in New Mexico. Didn't plan this visit, but some guy crashed his car through the brick fence into the backyard, running over my cats grave and hitting the shed in the process, and then rammed through the wire fence to get out. He was caught because he crashed again down the street, which is not surprising since he lost a tire and was leaking fluid. Actually it's kind of a miracle his car was running at all, since the drop from the road to our backyard is about 4 feet. Anyways, I've been helping Uncle with dealing with the insurance and the general contractor for repairs, and just doing general upkeep around the house. It's been nice to be here for some of the last episodes of Naruto too.

Before this all happened I spent a lovely weekend with Friend, checking out her new apartment. It's new, clean, perfectly sized, and overall really nice. I'm glad she found it. Hopefully I'll get to see more of it, as I'd really like to spend more time with her now that I have the time and (sort of) money. 

Came back down to NM the 31st, celebrated uncle's birthday and did various things around the house, flew out to Phoenix to see Friend last weekend, came back Tuesday, and now I'm heading back up to Colorado tomorrow. 

I've been applying for various jobs, but only heard back from one. IT was a rejection, but still nice to hear from them. I'm not too hopeful for the others either tbh, but we'll see!

Well, I leave Hawaii on Friday, so packing has begun. Unfortunately I missed the post office today, since their website lied and said they close at 1:30 when they close at 1:00, but hopefully I can send my package tomorrow morning before work.

My last two weeks in Hawaii have been busy. Honestly they've been the best part of the whole trip. It started the weekend of the Fourth when we hiked to Waimanu. So much happened it would take me forever to write it all, but as a basic overview:

-The hike sucked ass, and it's a miracle I survived both times. You start out by descending into a valley, crossing a river where it flows into the ocean, hiking up 1200 feet in a mile, 6 miles of up and down across waterfalls/pools, descending via muddy narrow trail to another valley, and crossing a final river. It was brutal. It took 7 and a half hours in, and 6 out.

-I started out the trip in a pretty bad place mentally, which came to a head when I got drunk the first night, got lost in the woods trying to get back to camp, and had a complete mental breakdown. The newish guy found me and led me back to camp while I sobbed out how depressed and shit I am and he tried to comfort me. It was embarrassing.

-On my 25th birthday we hiked out to this extremely big waterfall and swam in the pool below it. It was awesome.

-After that we went swimming and the waves were so rough they tore my glasses off my face. I didn't bring my extra pair with me. I was essentially blind, but it turns out Alex and I have almost the same prescription, so he let me borrow his glasses for the rest of the trip. I'm not mad at him any more.

-We also got pig meat from some pig hunters camping next to us, which Kelly poured alcohol over and I blew out as really weird birthday candles.

-Unfortunately, the combination of that meat and what I was drinking that night did not work out so well. I puked until 5 am.

-But, I finally felt not isolated, and had a good time talking to people that night. One girl, brought her ukelele and sang both nights.

-I got up at 7 the next morning. I did that fucking hike after a night of puking, wearing someone else's glasses, so dirty and sweaty I couldn't stand it, with Kelly following me because she was really worried about me and she and her bf actually took some of my stuff, and... I survived. I made it. I'm a little proud of myself.

-Immediately after the hike and even now, I feel... okay. For the first time in a long time, I felt not bad. I can't say I was or am completely crazy with happiness, but... I had done something extremely hard, that I didn't think I could do, and I felt like the people around me cared about me and had friendly feelings towards me, and that felt good.

This past weekend we had another jam packed weekend. Went to the movies to see the BFG on Friday. It was enjoyable, but suffered from being too long. The next morning was Farmer's market, followed by beach (Saw a turtle!), and ended with us hiking out to the active lava flow. We brought stuff for smores and banana boats and cooked it over the lava. It was fun, and the lava was perfect. It was flowing slow enough you didn't feel in extreme danger, but fast enough to still be interesting. Sunday we headed to South Point, though I didn't jump off the cliff, and then to Two-Step snorkel beach. After that was Kona Brewing Company, which is always delicious, and we finished by driving up Mauna Kea. I watched the sun set on what is the tallest mountain in the world, and it was beautiful.

So now I'm turning my thought homewards, and finishing up my last few days. Friday will be hectic, but by Saturday afternoon I should be home in New Mexico. I have a bunch of things to work on once I get home- including myself- and that'll keep me from being too sad.

Tired tonight for some reason, to the point I took an hour-long doze. Yes, it was totally a doze, I didn't actually fall totally asleep and potentially screw up my sleeping scheduled, nope. Right, self? You're going to be ready for actual sleep in a little while, right? Ahahaha :')

I've found two more nests! One last Thursday, one yesterday. The chick in the one I found Thursday is fairly large, it'll probably fledge soon, but the one from yesterday is still in incubation. We did manage to lure in the male from that nest with playback and get him banded. It was very amusing to watch his simultaneous agitation at intruders and reluctance to leave the nest when it's his turn to be sitting on it. What a good dad.

I started Dark Souls, but I am so not use to computer gaming and keyboard controls. I thought Bloodborne was bad, HOO BOY I HADN'T SEEN ANYTHING YET. I find the inventory/shops a little overwhelming. I don't know what any of these items do or how to equip them!

With a sinus infection! But at least it didn't go to my lungs as it usually does, and I got some antibiotics so I should be okay.

I've been doing a number on my nails lately, which is odd because I've not been particularly stressed. I've actually been in a fairly good mood recently- I think the increasing in light has really helped.

My family sent me some long sleeved shirts and a new hoodie for work. Hoodies are surprisingly hard to find here, though the hoodie+short combination is very popular with the locals. See how much you can poke and scratch me now, pukiawe!

I finally, FINALLY, caught up on Earthcast. Part 58 was pretty emotional for me, and I admit I shed a few tears. Gabi! Keiza! ;~; I was going to donate to the author though paypal, because now that I'm an Adult with a Job and Money I would like to make up for all those years I wasn't able to donate to *coughorjustpiratedcough* things I enjoyed, but paypal wants to validate my account through the phone and I don't like that. I'll have to see if there's an alternative method.

Been following along the re-reading going on over at ssss. I'm not actually re-reading myself, since I just did that in February in the days before coming to Hawaii to help calm myself down, but it's fun seeing everyone's responses. Lots of things have been pointed out that I didn't catch before.

Been playing around on Miitomo. I only have Friend added, but it's still fun.

Okay, I'm done having my temper tantrum. A lot of what I said in my last post still stands, but to tell the truth without the internet I get incredibly bored. I like having a place to complain as well, so on that note...

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I've had a sore throat the past few days, which is very odd for me- I'm not generally a throat sickness person. My asthma's been worse as well. I was hoping it was just from the vog, but since it's not getting better with time I think it's at the point I might have to say I'm sick.

Speaking of volcanic gases, had a disturbing dream last night. I went to Iceland to visit someone from Tumblr, only Iceland was more Hawaii. We were driving around looking at pahoehoe and steam vents, when suddenly everything started shaking and a huge gash appeared in the road ahead of us, plunging many cars and people into lava. Que dramatic action sequence of avoiding driving into lava-filled cracks. After we got to a safe destination I was very upset about what had happened, but was told that this was the risk you took by coming to Iceland, imminent death by lava, and if I didn't like it I could leave. So I got on a plane and did.

At least Emil looks very pretty in today's update.

Tomorrow I get to do some banding. Hell yeah, bird touching!

I have been loving the past couple strips of Hetalia, and it's kind of made my Japan/America feels come back. America just looks so comfortable in Japan's house, and it's like, is this a regular thing they do? America travels to Japan and stays at his house and they hang out watching TV? Japan is like a grandma and serves America tea during their sleepovers? I don't know, but I love it.

I started reading The Girl Who Played With Fire. I found it on the bookshelf in the living room. I read the first book of the trilogy years ago back when it was the big thing, and I did like it, but due to this-and-that I never got around to the other two, so this is perfect. It's a very smooth read, which is great for my current mood.

Still on the fence about Fates. Every change I read about leaves me shaking my head, but ahhh, I read some convos and they're pretty cute. Plus I miss gaming. Then again, I don't even know where I could go to get it here, unless Walmart has it.